A Love Song For All That Will Not Die

A Love Song for All That Will Not Die
June 18, 2011
Virginia United Methodist Annual Conference

I went to the Eastern Shore in 2005 as a result of three things:
a mission trip with college students from the Wesley Foundation at UVA during a freakishly cold Spring Break
the appointment system
and my own big mouth, because it was on that mission trip, as I was sitting down to dinner at Camp Occohannock on the Bay with the then-District Superintendent Jim Hewitt, that I found myself saying, "If you have any openings here, I'd like to be considered."
Two weeks later the move was underway.

Like most things in my life in the Virginia Annual Conference, (and I've got a long history here), I didn't know what I was doing when I got into it. I had no clue what the move was going to involve for my family or for me. I didn't even really know what the Eastern Shore was like. Sometimes it doesn't even show up on maps. People think of it as the end of the earth. Starbucks hasn't even discovered this place yet and they are everywhere. When colleagues heard that the bishop was sending me there they said, "What did you do?"

But friends, let me tell you something, and as Christians you should know this. When somebody tells you that something is dead, be careful. When somebody tells you that that there is no life in this place, be careful because there might be an empty tomb. When somebody tells you that there's a valley of dry bones and a voice says, "Mortal, can these dry bones live?", be careful. When there's a people locked in slavery and a man by a burning bush says, "I can't take that word of freedom back to Egypt," be careful. When there's a promise with no heirs, don't laugh like Sarah behind the tent flap when the promise is repeated. Be careful because this God we proclaim is in the resurrection business.

A few months ago - on Groundhog Day to be exact - I was going back to the Shore across the Chesapeake Bay Bridge-Tunnel - that 17 mile link between Virginia Beach and the Shore. I had been visiting in the hospital across the bay. ("Across the bay" is a peculiar Shore expression. It's applied very loosely. From the perspective of the Shore, everything is "across the bay." Virginia Beach. Across the bay. Norfolk. Across the bay. California. Across the bay.)

At any rate, I had been across the bay and I rolled down the window to pay the toll attendant. That's when it hit me. It had been a long, cold winter. You remember those days? A long, cold winter and Groundhog Day was unusually warm. And when I put the window down it all came flooding in to me. There in the air were memories.

Somewhere in the air were camellias and I was immediately back in my grandmother's garden. Somewhere in the air was the salt breeze of an ocean that was shedding its winter coat. Somewhere in the air were creaking swing sets where I pushed our children on a spring day. Somewhere, I swear, there was rain evaporating from a car's hot engine hood. Somewhere in the air were spring days when I would get into my friend Billy Mack's green Datsun pick-up truck and we would skip school to go...well, there were a lot of things in that air. I could smell it.

With all of that rushing in, I suddenly felt glad to be the age that I was. All of that stuff was in the air for me because of my memory, because of the opportunity I had to live life in this creation for this long. And I wrote a poem, because that's what we do on the Eastern Shore. We are all poets. And the end of the poem said:
When at last
I replaced the glass between memory and me
I sighed a lament
for youth
Not that it was lost
but that the young
should be so immune to what was in the air
With no capacity to resurrect moments that have not yet been
they skim the surface of a shallow sea
It is for those with age to know
what ledges and depths these waters conceal
And to be occasionally
assaulted and affirmed
by all that will not die.

I have been a part of the Virginia Annual Conference for a long time. All of my life. For most of that time I have heard laments and moans, cries of panic and accusation, exhortation and recrimination - all because the United Methodist Church was dying. The United Methodist Church is dying. And I have seen the Revealing Christ campaign and Vision 2000 and All Things New and the Call to Action, all of them born out of the same sense that something fundamental is broken in our witness in the world and something fundamental needs to change because the United Methodist Church is dying.

I don't come tonight to challenge that. Something fundamental does need to change. God will call forth the people. God will continue to set the captive free. If we want to be part of that movement of God's Spirit in the world, we surely must make the United Methodist Church a willing and able instrument. I don't come to challenge the notion that we must change else we die. I come to sing a love song for all that will not die.

Tonight we gather to remember. As we read the names of the faithful servants of the church who have died in the last year, with each name, for some of us in this arena, a flood of memories will come back. These are people, ordinary people just like us, who gave themselves in service through the United Methodist Church because they believed that in doing so they were answering the call of God. As we recall them our minds will be drawn to their personalities, their quirks, their unique habits of dress or speech. We remember moments when we encountered them in very personal ways. The tables where we shared meals. The church meetings where we labored together. The worship services where we sang together. And through it all a grace that made them transparent - even in the flesh, even behind the frailties and the failings - they were sometimes transparent so that the love of God could shine through.

As the names are called I will remember. I will remember William A. Wright, Jr. as a man who never failed to ask me as a youth about how things were going at Trinity:Orange, my home church, which was one of his charges as Charlottesville District Superintendent. Carl Ulrich, who made such a huge transition in his life going from being a lawyer to a pastor - don't tell me God can't perform miracles - and who did it with such a deep thoughtfulness and concern for the church. Joseph T. Carson, Jr. who taught me that any challenge in ministry can be called an opportunity.

And I will remember Elmer A. Thompson, who was so unassuming. So quietly dedicated. So deeply self-aware. And who nurtured a generation of young people though the Youth Engaged in Service program, which produced so many great leaders in the church. When I was in the YES program working with children and seniors in the Highland Park area of Richmond, the letters and visits from Elmer put the Apostle Paul to shame. When I remember Elmer I know there are things that will not die as long as I live.

So many others. And each of them spent most of their ministry in service to a denomination that was told continually that it was becoming culturally irrelevant, that it was not what it used to be, not what it should be, that its future was imperiled and its present was a sign of failure. These servants spent most of their lives hearing this message.

And yet. And yet. These people, clergy and lay, touched lives. They called people to new life in Christ and people responded. They were the environment I grew up in. They instilled in others a sense that the roots of the Methodist movement still had vibrancy and vitality. They held up a vision of what the United Methodist Church could be. They created programs that helped new generations see the possibilities of a life that combines works of piety and works of mercy, spirituality and social justice, open hearts, open minds and open doors. They were not mired in a message of death. Oh, some days maybe. We all have them. But we are here today because they carried something from our past to this day.

When I see young people responding to the call. When I see new faith communities springing up in the unlikeliest of places. When I hear the gospel in the tongues of many different lands. When I see the United Methodist Church still alive in the imaginations of people, I know that God used these people to do something that will not die.

Let's return to the Gospel word from Matthew. What must Jesus' followers have heard when he sat down to teach on the mountain? He shared such strange things with them. Things that must have made no sense to them. Happy are those who mourn? What sort of beatitude is that in the face of death? Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you. The world does not work like that, Jesus. Forgive those who sin against you. On and on this Sermon on the Mount goes with one incredible command following another.

Then, just as they must have been wondering, as once they did, "Who then can be saved?"...just as we begin to wonder, "Who then can do this following Jesus thing?"...Jesus begins a little section on the birds of the air and the lilies of the field interlaced with warnings about anxiety. It's like Bobby McFerrin shows up on the mountainside and begins to sing "Don't worry, be happy." Only there is something more going on here.

"Do not be worried about your life - what you will eat or what you will drink. Don't be worried about what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? Look at the birds, who do not sow. Who do not reap. Who do not gather crops into barns. (Those lazy birds.) And yet God feeds them.

"And look at the lilies. They don't work. They don't spin fabric. (Those lazy flowers.) And yet God clothes them like Solomon in all his glory.

"If God feeds birds. If God adorns the grass of the field which is alive today and is gone tomorrow. What are you worried about?"

It's not a call to laziness. It's not a call to be idle or detached from the world. It's not a call to blissful ignorance. It's a call to let go of the thing that kills. It's a call to let go of our fear.

Fear that God might not mean all those promises about the reign of God among us. Fear that maybe salvation, for myself and for the world, is really not about grace and faith but maybe it really does depend on my artfully-planned and well-executed program. Fear of failure. Doubt of self. Lack of trust. Suspicion of the stranger's knock at the door. Denial of hope. Dark thoughts that maybe death really does have the last word. As if the cross and empty tomb mean nothing to a world come of age, to use Dietrich Bonhoeffer's phrase.

"Forget how incredible it all sounds," Jesus says. "Disengage your disbelief and seek ye first the Kingdom of God and God's righteousness and...you know the rest...all these things shall be added unto you. And don't worry about tomorrow...because tomorrow will care for itself."

I once heard the author and poet Mary Karr talk about her journey into writing. Karr came to her faith later in life through a very gritty path. She has won much acclaim and a National Book Award for her memoirs. Mary Karr said that a turning point for her in finding her voice was when she was talking to a priest. She was struggling with her writing. Struggling to know what to write. And the priest asked her, "Mary, what would you write if you weren't afraid?" What would you write if you weren't afraid? For Karr it was the beginning of becoming who she needed to become as a writer.

What would you do if you weren't afraid? What would our church do if we weren't afraid? How would we face down death if we were not afraid but seeking God?

I don't come tonight to deny the realities of this world that is captivated by death. But I do deny that those realities have the capacity to win the day. I learned that through the witness of so many faithful clergy and lay people who sought God and loved the world and passed it on. Some of them we are remembering tonight. And for all those family members who are here: we share in your grief but also in your gratitude for all that God has done in the lives of your loved ones.

We also share in a confidence that the love for God and the love of God that we knew through these servants is something that does not perish. The word they proclaimed in innumerable sermons. The moments when grace pervaded the space between them and another person. The hands we held. The prayers they prayed. The witness they gave in confronting the evil powers of this world. The tears they shed and the laughter. These things do not perish because they grow out of love and, as Song of Songs tells us, "Love is stronger than death; passion fierce as the grave. Many waters cannot quench love."

We also share confidence that tomorrow is not worth our fear because tomorrow is assured. God has already been to tomorrow. The cross and the tomb show us the character of tomorrow. Jesus invites us toward tomorrow without anxiety because Jesus knows that the last word is not death.

So we stand - and we do stand - on tomorrow. It's in the air, just like all those memories. Tomorrow is in the air. It smells like camellias and it sounds like creaking children's swings. It is filled with the presence of God and with the voices of all those saints who sing God's praise. Don't worry about tomorrow. Don't face it with fear. Your desire, your truest desire, is for God. And God is faithful.

I come tonight to sing a love song. A love song for this church which, despite itself sometimes, has sustained the faith and hope of people like you and me. A love song for these human servants who, despite themselves sometimes, embodied that faith and hope for people like you and me. I come tonight to sing a love song for all that will not die. Thanks be to God.